KU AKAN TERUS KERAS BERNYANYI.

cepet sembuh ya, bed rest yg banyak

jujur gua lebih suka lo ngomong langsung. walaupun sakit ya tapi emang bener gitu kan, fair kok. gua menghargai alesan lo kenapa ga bales line gua lagi. lo msh pengen sama dia. gua gabisa bilang apa apa lagi kalo emang kayak gitu faktanya. se-"ganteng2"-nya hal yg gua lakuin, ya tetep gabisa gua kalahin, dia cowok yg pernah bikin lo jatuh hati, bikin hari hari lo berarti, bikin lo senyum2 karena tingkahnya. gua? ha ha ha lo siapa nya reeey.
tapi gua udh terlanjur, terlajur semuanya. terlanjur suka, terlanjur seneng, terlanjur care sama lo. gua suka bgt kalo pas lg ngobrol sama lo, gatau kenapa. tapi yaudah lah, sabar. good luck ya sama yg disana.
gua ga benci ataupun marah sama lo, krn lo berani jelasin lgsg ke gua. selow, bener kok hal yg lo lakuin. fair buat gua.

at least respect me enough to tell me what's up. if you dont want to talk to me, just tell me. if i'm getting on your nerves, just let me know. if you're losing feelings, dont keep me waiting just to lead me on or play me. i at least deserve to know. so instead of keeping things to yourself just be straight up and honest with me so i dont have to sit around looking stupid

what disturbs me so bad

well maybe this is the worst feeling i've ever had. I mean, yeah, girls.
last week on thursday april 10th, we had our first date. and I really felt like "oh god I finally find the perfect girl". we were hanging out together, great conversation, we laughed a lot, had really so much fun, however, in every minute you always said that you shouldn't hangout with me like this, that there's one of your best friend likes me and talks about me alot. and you can't do this. you said it thousands fucking times, but i always denied to talk about and keep on ignoring it. untill in the end before I took you home, i started to worry about your friend then i asked "how about your best friend?" and you told me "it's okay, i will slowly talk to her". it really makes me calm and happy.

well after all, it's just so perfect between us, and i know you feel the same way too. i couldn't stop singing all the way home, like thoudsands of flowers in my head. and dream comes true dude.

but the next day, suddenly it all chaged. i asked you again to hangout but you strictly push me that you really shouldn't go on date with me the previous day, that you've betrayed your best friend.
then i went to your home, asked you to come out and discuss to solve the problem together. but you said no, hell no. no that you dont want to see me, no that you dont want to talk about anymore, no that you're done with this.
damn, for a long time that i dont have a relationship, you really broke my heart. how could it be that yesterday we were so perfect then today we ended up like this.
i just wait outside, in front of your house, sitting alone staring at my cell phone, had a chat with you but you just keep on saying that we're not gonna make it.
it's getting late at night, but i just wait outside hoping that you're gonna come out and discuss this together. but yeah, i was a fool hoping that way.
in the end, at about 10 o'clock i give up. i sent you a voice message saying goodbye and my deepest apology for disturbing your time. i went home with tears, i cant stand for it.

the sun arises, a new day begins. still you in my mind, i cant get you out of my head. it's a midtest day, i was thinking to meet you after the test. but what happen, you ask your boy friends to back you up and tell me to go away. for the second time dude, you really broke my heart again. i mean why girls are so complicated, why dont we both just talk, solve it together, and get things done. dammit.
my point is, why you ignore your heart just because your best friend, which actually you still can talk with her.

i guess you woud have hated me now

day by day just past
i feel so terrible ever since, you never want to see me again. we never say hi, you always avoiding me, i dont know what am i suppose to do with this.
thousands of why playin in my head
i cant sleep, i cant focus, i cant stop thinking about you, i swallow every single pain, i see your smile everywhere.

please, we're still friends right?

I will be there
Always be near
And we can go all the way
Everytime I secretly hope that you’ll treat me differently

To every sleepless nights we’ve spent
Talking about our lives and understand

I will be here when he's gone

Love and success and wonderful things may never come, or they may, and they may leave just as quickly.

Nothing is certain but what you have today.

BIARKAN KU DISINI

SEMUA MATA KAN MENATAP RENDAH,

KU AKAN TERUS KERAS BERNYANYI

Jika kita mempunyai keinginan yang kuat dari dalam hati, maka seluruh alam semesta akan bahu-membahu mewujudkannya.

- Soekarno

but this women has a hold on my heart that i could not break if i want it to

and there have been times that i want it to

it was overwhelming and humbling or even painful at times 

but i can't stop loving her anymore that i could stop breathing

i  am hopelessly, irretrieavbly, in love with her

more than she knows

tapi makhluk apa itu kejujuran

di mana batas jujur dan kebodohan

atau ketika satu tujuan ditekuni

yang lainnya jadi tak penting lagi?

PREFACE

udah lama ga posting tentang apa yg gua alamin akhir akhir ini. yap betul kemaren gua mengalami sesuatu yg aneh dalam blog ini.jadi couple days ago, gua betulin hp gua yg beberapa wkt lalu rusak kena air. dan alhasil hp gua sembuh dan semua isi hp gua diganti sama yg baru. lo tau berapa hrg nya men! 500k! tele ga tuh. sebenernya bisa si kalo ganti hp, kebetulan di rmh gua ada hp nganggur. tapi gua udh terlanjur sayang sama nih hp. mungkin karena hp ini yg udah nemenin gua selama 3 thn terakhir, dan juga, simbol bahwa gua udh beranjak ke SMA. banyak kenangan yg gua lewatin bareng sama hp ini. jadi tuh dit 500k gua jabanin deh demi hp ini bisa lanjutin petualangan mengukir kenangan bareng gua lagi.

dan setelah semua perangkatnya baru, entah kenapa hp gua unexpectedly connected sama account google gua. jadi di gallery hp gua itu peeeennuh bgt sama foto2 yg pernah gua posting di blog ini. i've tried it thousand times to delete all of those photos. tapi ya tetep aja ga ada opsi delete di hp gua. akhirnya gua sign in lewat laptop ke account google gua dan gua apus semua album foto. dan... cemewew! semua foto di blog gua ini, ILANG!! termasuk gambar backround, button, template, postingan yg isinya foto, aaaaampe semua muanya. wkt itu blog gua ini isinya simbol perboden semua. kaga ada yg muncul gambarnya, yaiya siii orang udh gua apus kan. gua panik seada adanya, kerja keras nge design blog gua yg sangat gua banggakan ilang gitu aja dengan satu kali klik pertanyaan konfirmasi "hapus semua album foto?" ....................................... akhirnya gua design ulang lagi ini blog, gua search lagiiiiiiiiii satu satuuuuuuu gambar2 yg dulu ada di blog ini. yg bikin paaaaaling ngeselin tu postingan gua yg ada fotonya ilang gambarnya, kaga ada, ILANG!!! padahal posting yg ada fotonya itu beeehhhhh, berharga bgt buat gua. akhirnya gua apus itu semua postingan yg ada fotonya, bodo amat lah ilang ilang lu. ILANG!!!

dan lo tau cara yg benernya ngapus itu semua foto yg ada di hp gua? gua nyari di youtube dan untung nya ada org yg upload video buat ngasitau cara ngapus foto bawaan google. pas gua liat gila booooooos ngapa kaga dari tadddddi gua search di youtube. busetdeh caranya tinggal ke settings > account and sync > udeh lu  pilih dah stop sync photos from google. anjuuuuuuunuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuung

oke oke gapapa selow selow. udeh udeh, ganti topik, sabar sabar.

nah sebenernya ini nih yang pengen gua omongin

gua akhir2 ini jarang posting lagi di blog. maksut gua posting tentang apa yg gua alamin di kehidupan gua, bkn tentang gua yg nyeritain hal yg gua alamin bareng orang lain, especially pacar. eh apa bedanya ya, ya gitu dah. cuma gua doang paling yg tau wkwk. kenapa gua jadi jarang posting mungkin gini,entah kenapa baru gua sadarin tadi sore eh kemaren sore eh audah kapan pokoknya sore sore pas tanggal 28 Maret 2013, inspirasi terbesar gua dalam blog ini adalah cinta. yaa lo boleh bilang jijik, apa bgt, norak. tapi gua juga gatau knp bisa gini. apa emang cinta sebegitu dahsyat nya sampe bisa bikin orang yg males baca (gua), jadi suka bikin postingan di blog, yg artinya gua bikin postingan pasti baca bolak balik dong apa yg akan gua post.

masa SMA emang, labil. banyak hal harus dipelajari, hehe. dan saat ini gua gapunya cewek, jadi jarang bahkan ga ada posting yg banyak ngomongin cewek kayak postingan sebelum2nya. di awal awal pas gua baru putus, gua merasa panik, ga ada yg diajak chat atau telponan, tiap malem berasa sepi banget bangetan. gua merasa harusss bgt gua punya cewek lagi biar gua bisa tenang. akhirnya gua coba ngobrol lagi sm mantan gua berharap bisa akrab lagi, deketin adek kelas, nyari tmn ngobrol lwt telpon tiap malem, dkk. banyak lah, nia tuh tau seberapa gelisahnya gua. begiiiiiituuuuuu terus hari hari gua berjalan. 

sampai pada suatu saat hati gua bicara. iyaaa iyaaa gua tauu emang jijik ngebacanya, tapi emang gini loh, asli.  gatau gimana pokoknyaa tiba2 terbesit dlm pikiran gua "iya ya, sebenernya gua ngapain si kayak gini. maudy aja bilang dia fine fine aja kok ga punya cowok" dan sejak saat itu pola pikir gua berubah men. tapi ga se-instan itu juga, berhari hari gua mikir tentang hal ini di setiap gua mau tidur.dan akhirnya gua bisa mikir "GAPUNYA PACAR TUH FINE FINE AJA KOK". instead, lo lebih bisa menyangi diri lo sendiri. berenaang, rileks in pikiran, jogging, main sepeda sore sore, dst. iyasiiih kedengerannya flat banget tp ketika lo lakuin itu, lo baru dah bisa berasa di diri lu. walaupun itu semua lo lakuin sendirian, tapi ga menjadikan itu hal yg membosankan kok. dan lagi, semua ada waktunya kok buat kita mencari pasangan hidup.

lagi, yg bikin gua bisa ngerubah pola pikir gua adalah MASIH ADA GELAR YG HARUS LO DAPET BOS, DOKTER.

sekian

suatu saat di masa depan nanti, pasti  gua dan istri gua bakal ngetawain post ini. yaa namanya anak SMA, masa transisi, gejolak kawula muda. jadi maklum ya Rere di masa depan, atau lebih tepatnya dok.

IT SUCKS

Today, some errors occured in this blog. I lost many posts here, fuck.

HAVE YOU SEEN THIS ON THE STREET?

SCIENCE UNITE. CLASS OF 2013

VERSI I
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jv5my8-Pr5o

VERSI II
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E0NMJAEKi4Q

DIDUT 18TH

PANGO 17TH

can't take it easy, i'm out of control
i am young
i speak sweet
come take it baby, it's my first time and it's all for you
all we need is follow our lust
don't think my honey, get on top of me

Reynald #1


sudah lah tak usah kau pusingkan masalah masalah seperti itu, saatnya menjadi dewasa saatnya tumbuh. saatnya merubah pola pikir

you can't change your past, but you can change your mind about your past.

tastes so bitter, feels so sweet

lost in a dream, never fall asleep
don't say a word, i already know

A Fresh to Start Something New

Today, the 24th of December. I declare this day as your born day "@Reynald_8"

you have been the one for me

and as you move on, remember me
remember us and all we used to be

you touched my heart you touched my soul
you changed my life and all my goals
i've kissed your lips and held your hand
shared your dreams and shared your bed
i've seen you cry, i've seen you smile
i've watched you sleeping for a while
i know your fears and you know mine
i'd spent a lifetime with you


you have been the one, you have been the one for me

Today, on 6th December 2012

i don't know what went first but we started kissing
we were making out it was fun

DAMN I LOVE THIS

"There's nothing wrong with being a crow. When you compare them to the poor caged birds that have forgotten to fly, crows are much better. Being a crow is good enough for me."

- Crows zero

SINS FLOW WITHOUT SANE

The more she pled, oh yes she said
touch and kiss
love and lust
pain and bliss
i watched her sleep, touched her around

"i'll make you mine today"