I met this girl as my junior team mate. she was kind, good looking, and sociable. she got my attention since the inaguration of the new basketball member. We start to know each other, we often talk, chat, we hang out together, we laugh, we share our stories, we spend lunch time together, and so many more.
I enjoy those things much. she often gave me a hug while i'm driving, she always proud of me. everything seems right.
but then i figure out something about her that i never heard before in my life. ever since i knew that, i kinda lost my feelings on her. we still making out together, having lunch together, yet i dont care about her at all. and after that, we often have a fight, we try to discuss it but no, we never solve it, i mean we apolgize but there's always something new that made us fight again. and it always happen right after we go on a date. it's like, i dont know, we making out together, we holding hands, we say goodnight before bed, we do sweet things, but we always feel like there's something that not fit in each of us.

as the time goes by, she falls in me too deep, she often asked me if i love her or not. i said yes, however, i really doubt about it.
yesterday, we hang out together and bought you an ice cream. on the way home i talked to her about what really happen between us. we enjoy every single thing we do but there's always something that feels not right in each of us. and i said how about we end this up, i've been tired having so much fight with you, it seems not right at all. she looked upset, she kept her voice in silence. then she said, i dont know i'm tired, i just wanna lay down on my bed.
I hold her hand staring in the eyes

I just wanna say thanks for all the time you've shared, all the things you've done, all the attention you gave me. i really appreciate that. and i'm really sorry for letting you down. i hope you'll find a guy that fits to you, who can understand your thoughts and the things you're up to.
whatever happens, happens. you've tried your best, let your heart move on.