we were having a good conversation on the phone three days ago. that was good, and great instead. and for maybe the first time ever, you didn't sound defensive or got mad at me or like you think i'm an intruder.
i wish that there was some chance of talking like yesterday on the phone after tonight, or seeing each other. like, really seeing each other. of being alone, together.
i want to be with you all the time. you're the most unpredictable girl i've ever met, and the funniest, and everything you do surprises me. and i wish i could say that those are the reasons i like you.
every time i see you in class i can't help my heartbeats. that's probably why i looked so stupid in front of you, and why i snap at you. all i do when we're apart is think about you, and all i do when we're together is panic. because every second feels so important. and because i'm so out of control, i can't help myself. all the things that i've managed to talk to suddenly turned into gobbledygook in my mouth.
