at least respect me enough to tell me what's up. if you dont want to talk to me, just tell me. if i'm getting on your nerves, just let me know. if you're losing feelings, dont keep me waiting just to lead me on or play me. i at least deserve to know. so instead of keeping things to yourself just be straight up and honest with me so i dont have to sit around looking stupid

what disturbs me so bad

well maybe this is the worst feeling i've ever had. I mean, yeah, girls.
last week on thursday april 10th, we had our first date. and I really felt like "oh god I finally find the perfect girl". we were hanging out together, great conversation, we laughed a lot, had really so much fun, however, in every minute you always said that you shouldn't hangout with me like this, that there's one of your best friend likes me and talks about me alot. and you can't do this. you said it thousands fucking times, but i always denied to talk about and keep on ignoring it. untill in the end before I took you home, i started to worry about your friend then i asked "how about your best friend?" and you told me "it's okay, i will slowly talk to her". it really makes me calm and happy.

well after all, it's just so perfect between us, and i know you feel the same way too. i couldn't stop singing all the way home, like thoudsands of flowers in my head. and dream comes true dude.

but the next day, suddenly it all chaged. i asked you again to hangout but you strictly push me that you really shouldn't go on date with me the previous day, that you've betrayed your best friend.
then i went to your home, asked you to come out and discuss to solve the problem together. but you said no, hell no. no that you dont want to see me, no that you dont want to talk about anymore, no that you're done with this.
damn, for a long time that i dont have a relationship, you really broke my heart. how could it be that yesterday we were so perfect then today we ended up like this.
i just wait outside, in front of your house, sitting alone staring at my cell phone, had a chat with you but you just keep on saying that we're not gonna make it.
it's getting late at night, but i just wait outside hoping that you're gonna come out and discuss this together. but yeah, i was a fool hoping that way.
in the end, at about 10 o'clock i give up. i sent you a voice message saying goodbye and my deepest apology for disturbing your time. i went home with tears, i cant stand for it.

the sun arises, a new day begins. still you in my mind, i cant get you out of my head. it's a midtest day, i was thinking to meet you after the test. but what happen, you ask your boy friends to back you up and tell me to go away. for the second time dude, you really broke my heart again. i mean why girls are so complicated, why dont we both just talk, solve it together, and get things done. dammit.
my point is, why you ignore your heart just because your best friend, which actually you still can talk with her.

i guess you woud have hated me now

day by day just past
i feel so terrible ever since, you never want to see me again. we never say hi, you always avoiding me, i dont know what am i suppose to do with this.
thousands of why playin in my head
i cant sleep, i cant focus, i cant stop thinking about you, i swallow every single pain, i see your smile everywhere.

please, we're still friends right?