in mean time later

alright, so lets just say it's over and make it simple. maybe we're not meant to be match for each other, to go to that way. maybe we can make it someday, somehow, in the other line.
after all, i never enjoy the every single of our conversation lately. even if when you sounds excited. i don't know. the first time we met we both were so extremely excited. you know.... i was exactly, hehe. you just excited, not extremely. but you just so... unpredictable. no, hot and cold, perhaps. well actually it's not my rights to judge you while i just known you for a couple months. but that's the way i feel.
one day you went like a good listener, in other day you went boring, and another day again you were so excited. i don't know whether you playin me, or you wanna figure out how good i am. or maybe you want something you used to have from your last relationship and try to make it with me then suddenly you realize that you're not even ready for that. but it's okay, none of your fault.
i guess i'm tired to hope. it gets worse everyday with this something-i-dont-know with you. though it isn't easy for me to let it go. cause i care already.
maybe i took this too far. i was too excited about you. or maybe it's been wrong right from the start.
but thanks for being nice after all this time.

Evade

you always said that every where, thousands fucking times. dude, pain is just pain. nothing special in pain, in fact every single human feels pain. what becomes the problem is that your thought about pain demands to be felt. hell no, pain is just pain. shit happens sometimes, however, you can always choose how you will face it.
so instead of keep on saying that retarted word, i think you should just let it go. just accept that he's a real jerk. and about your relationship, well it's over. you just broke up, i mean, yeah, everyone has got to do it sometimes, it's okay, let it go.

but no, i'm not saying like this so that you can move on as quick and go hangout with me. no at all, it is just i feel like something in you has to be straighten up.

well perhaps you know neither that i've written a lot about you, nor  that i have a blog. but yeah, just in case somehow you know about my blog.

so that's all, stay tough, stay gorgeous.
i would love to have a conversation with you, i really wish that we could spend times together. just both of us, talking about our lives and understands.

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